“If I waited for perfection I would never write a word.”-Margaret Atwood

Ever since we were asked to leave Spaces I’ve been adrift trying to decide where I felt more comfortable – eblogger or wordpress - I could not make a definitive decision.  I have tried both and while they each have some fine features they also each present peculiar limitations.  For instance, I can’t find a way to use color here nor a way to change fonts and size.  At eblogger I can’t find an easy way to customize my blog.  All this may have to do with my limited knowledge, but my knowledge was just as limited at Spaces, but Spaces was much easier for me to navigate.  But, alas, Spaces is gone and I must work with what I have.

Since October I’ve not blogged regularly and by last week I missed it so much I blogged on wordpress.  Still no definitive decision.  Well today I decided that I’ll blog in both places, if and when I feel the urge.  Does it matter?  No, it does not.  I blog for me.  I blog because I love to write and because blogging has seen me through some tough times and has been very fulfilling.  Also, I have missed my blogging friends.  So, I’m back with a vengeance.  I’ll blog on eblogger and wordpress alternately.  I’ll blog as often as I can.

Last weekend I read through the blogs I wrote during the last nine months of Dean’s illness.  While I wrote each day during that period, I had no idea how important each outpouring was to my mental and emotional well-being.  As I read those entries and the encouragement of old friends and new friends, I realized how much it had meant to the quality of my life at that sad time.  Blogging got me through days and nights when I needed to talk to someone at a time when there was no one to listen, usually in the wee hours of the night and morning.  I am truly grateful that blogging was available to me. 

I still miss Dean, but I am building a new life firmly on the foundation of the old.  Dean is with me at all times and as I read those blogs from 2006 I knew that he is cheering me on just as he did when he was here.

I’m off to New Orleans for my family reunion next month and I have a retreat to give on sponsoring recovering women in May.  I must go to Nevada to check on things and renew my driver’s license before New Orleans and to Montana as soon as the snow melts which should be the end of May.